I’ve had lots of chances to be “normal”. Chances to be a “normal contributing member of society”. Chances to change my heathen ways to “conform to the norm”. Lots of chances to lead a “normal life”. I’ve never had the best of luck with “normal” jobs. The longest job I ever held was taking care of my grandmother, who was a blind, 81 y/o Alzheimer’s patient, for the last 6 years of her life. I’d grown up with her as my “other mom” for 21 years. She was one of my closest friends.
(I held that job so long because I made her a promise. I promised her that she wouldn’t die alone and she wouldn’t be “warehoused”. She would die at home. —See, my grandmother was a nurse, so when she was diagnosed with Dementia, which happens before Alzheimer’s kicks in, she KNEW exactly what it meant. She was going to lose her mind and no one could stop it from happening.)
I have been given countless chances. COUNTLESS. By loads of people. When I find myself in a job/position where I have a chance to pay those people back, I try to give it to them. Unfortunately mostly what I have to offer is chances. Chances to promote themselves and make money, to get their names out there and be recognized for their talents.
I currently find myself in that position again, but its not going so well. Here is the scenario: I am in a position to give my writer friends a foot in the door by writing for LGR. I tell them about the site and my job. O offer them a position writing for s as a contributing writer. They are all excited when I offer them the chance to get in the door, but when it comes to assignments and (really loose) deadlines, they seem to just *POOF!*…disappear. And I can’t think of it Personally because it is Business.
This is not my personal site. I don’t own it. Its not a hobby. I run the Entertainment Dept. of an affiliated news site. That means that we are just as legit as CNN or any of the other online news sites that have right to press passes and covering stories that apply to our readers. This isn’t something that is just another page in the vastness of the Internet.
…but they don’t take it seriously…and that makes me sad. How can I give the a chance at their dreams if they won’t take it from me?
I am thankful to the few writers that do contribute to our site. They make us all that more colorful! ;D
Today on my Facebook page I wrote this as my status:
This is what I’ve been reduced to. *shakes head*